Isn't that the dream? For anyone who's been blogging for a couple of years it's got to be in the back of your mind that one day this could be a viable income whether it subsidise a job you love or lets you quit one you really don't it's now a legitimate job for a lot of people. I've never been particularly ambitious in the work place, I do my job and I like to know I'm doing it well but I've never had designs to advance to the top of the career ladder. I'm most at home at a computer but I'm a creative soul and unless I started over and retrained to do something like web design I will be stuck behind a desk working for someone else for not great pay for the rest of my life, the reason? I just don't want it enough. For some it is all about the money, they will work 12 hours a day at the worst place ever if it pays well, I'd rather be broke and happy. I don't hate the job I have now, I actually used to quite like it but between the recent changes, increased stress levels and the amazing opportunities that I am being offered via blogging it's making less and less sense to stay. Potentially if I left I could earn more money doing something I truly enjoy from the comfort of my own home while being able to spend more time with my family so when tempers flare and things start to get shouty over at the office I wonder, what am I doing here? At the same time being home all day with the kids can leave you stir crazy.. I know that without my blog I couldn't be SAHM, I'd go mad with no adult interaction all day, at least via the internet I have 'friends' keeping me sane. I go to work for the money just like everyone else but I also go for the social aspect, I would miss the familiar faces, the banter and the company.. it adds structure to my week and without it I might not be the same person. Im might lose my drive and motivation.. I might just become a bore since I have no need to keep my witty conversation sharp if I'm alone all day. These are things I think of when I consider taking the leap in to full time blogging, that and of course the stigma. People seem to turn on bloggers who jack in their day jobs, I have lost count of the amount of comments I've had praising me for being a 'normal person' with a 'real job' - I've always liked that but what if I no longer have a 'real job'? Am I no longer relatable to my readership? Is their a chance that what I've given up that 'real job' for will dwindle and fade away because I actually needed it for my totally unrelated blog? Crazy but possible. As a blogger I look up to my peers who have been lucky enough to go it alone but I can see why there many be animosity from those reading posts on their commute from girls sitting home all day in their pyjamas, I'd be jealous too but I wouldn't begrudge them what they've built for themselves. It's 50% luck when it comes to online publication, obviously you have to have something people like but they have to find you in the first place and there's only so much you can do to help that happen. I've worked damned hard to get to the point I'm at now but now I'm finally here I'm not sure I can do it.. it's scary without the thought of alienating my audience so what that adds is just a lovely bonus. I'm not sure what this post is, just a rambly rant but I'm hoping one way or another over the next week or two I will come to a compromise in my work and home life that will give me a little more balance.